|Tuesday, October 10th, 2006|
October 10th, 2006
I'm not bulimic anymore but I think alot of people would benefit from the answer to this question: how long after eating something does it take for your body to absorb those calories?
|Monday, October 2nd, 2006|
October 2nd, 2006
|Saturday, September 30th, 2006|
September 30th, 2006
My boyfriend joeL, my roommate Mike and our friend Clint our all watching the Florida game. All I can think about is that I now way almost 92 when last week I was 82!! I was soooo not ready to recover. I just need to take better care of myself. Any suggestions for not going back to the ER???? Current Mood: calm
September 30th, 2006
It has been so long
I went into the hospital dehydrated with SEVERE postassium deleption. I want to recover. But I don't..... I wonder how much I weigh. I was 82 a week ago!!!!! I missed you guys!!! :) I"m back and better than ever.
peace and love!
|Wednesday, September 20th, 2006|
September 20th, 2006
Okay, so I had finally reached my short term goal of 85 lbs and kept it for a few weeks now I am at 87!! WTF??? How did that happen? I ate macaroni and cheese like twice but I hardly ever put ANYTHING in my mouth-besides my boyfriend!! hehe Seriously, is this water weight? is this because I'm anorexic which makes me constantly constipated? Am I getting the anorexic bloat? I hate not being able to go to the bathroom. Anyone else have this issue? I take laxatives then it will take like 3 days for it to work! I hate it. I'm so mad. I want to be 85! Better yet-80!!!!
I need some encouragement.
Peace & Love,
Andrea Nicole <3
X-Posted Current Mood: pissed off
|Sunday, September 17th, 2006|
September 17th, 2006
I have reached GOAL WEIGHT #1!!!!!!!!! I woke up this morning and the scale said 85 lbs!!! I couldn't be happier. Well, yes I could. Five more lbs. Ten? When is it ever enough? The scale says 85 so why do I still feel like a fat cow? Why do I want to be bones? Because bones are beautiful. Does everyone think bones are beautiful? Or is just the disordered? Is it too early to be thinking about this? this is constant. Besides my boyfriend, this is pretty much all I think about. Food, eating, not eating, sex, love, starvation, exercise, sex, love, weight, lbs, sex, love... etc etc etc etc etc... whoa. Current Mood: accomplished
|Wednesday, September 6th, 2006|
September 6th, 2006
Hi. My name is Andrea Nicole adn I have been lurking around for a while but have not introduced myself. I am a 23 year old anorexic bulimic with borderline personality disorder. Fun, right? Yeah.... so I got this journal so I can find people like me to talk to!!! I feel so alone right now. I have MSN messenger (firstname.lastname@example.org) Let's talk!
Here are my stats:
CW 88 lbs
HW 120 LBS
LW 85 LBS
GW 80 LBS
X-POSTED Current Mood: bored
|Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006|
August 22nd, 2006
|Sunday, August 13th, 2006|
August 13th, 2006
|Saturday, August 12th, 2006|
August 12th, 2006
|Thursday, July 27th, 2006|
July 27th, 2006
|Sunday, July 23rd, 2006|
July 23rd, 2006
I discovered this community when looking for hair tips. Strange. Well i just want to say that this community is an insult to the young female generation. I understand that women with eating disorders need support, but a site dedicated to encouraging one another to continue such an unhealthy physical and mental disorder is absolutely horrible.
"...because mod is ana .....because nothing looks good if you're fat." You are only making the battle worse for yourselves. I plan on contacting the Livejournal webmasters and having this community closed because no young female should ever have to stumble upon this and think that it is acceptable.
|Tuesday, July 4th, 2006|
July 4th, 2006
SO. I barely eat. I usually eat a bowl of fat free yoghurt and 2 fruit a day. These poses two problems I cant seem to be able to solve:
1. Getting my friends and parents off my back. My parents think i dont eat b.c i dont have money but my friends often look at me with pity and/or digust and preach.
2. I can't seem to get rid of headaches/dizzyness. I'm afraid I'll faint and that will cause even more problems.
SO. if anyone has been through any of this, could please spare some free advice?
|Monday, July 3rd, 2006|
July 3rd, 2006
I just bought this diet pill called "Internal Flush". I know it sounds pretty gross, but it's supposed to get rid of everything in you or something. It sounds like a healthy pill to me, but I want to know how it worked for anyone who tried it and if there's any side effects.
|Saturday, July 1st, 2006|
July 1st, 2006
Hi! I'm new here and I need serious HELP cause I have started to (try to) cut down... Got any tips? Current Mood: confused
|Friday, June 30th, 2006|
June 30th, 2006
I went to this site http://www.geocities.com/melgsunshine/lookingfortips.html
when I googled bulimia and I'm scared. I knew you could get sick and I thought only a few people could die but I heard all these stories like how someone died from choking on a toothbrush she used and that when you purge your heart could stop and lots of stuff could go wrong. I purge everything I eat, which isn't usualy much. I can't go a day if I eat something without purging. I really don't want help, I want to lose weight and it's to hard to stop. I do eat bad stuff and purge because people cook me stuff and I feel bad if I don't have it because they made it for me and I feel worse when I do eat it so I purge. I only eat when I'm with people, which is a lot and this is why I'm not losing weight. So whatever, I'll just eat celary when I'm around people saying I'm full or I'm sick, like before, and then they'll make me eat again... Current Mood: scared
|Thursday, June 29th, 2006|
June 29th, 2006
off topice, bf stealing... and eating with people
off topic part(bf stealing.../?)
When I posted about how I thought my boyfriend was stealing from me, and said my dad saw him put my ring in his bag someone posted and said that her dad used to do say stuff like that, but it wasn't true because her father is diabetic. I got hit in the head with a brick, how could I not of thought of that? My dad is nuts. He always starts fights with my boyfriend for no apparent reason and my boyfriend is nothing but nice to him and me. My dad is such an asshole! I bet it was him who put it in his bag to set me up to break up with him. He did something kind of like that with a condom he said he found when i never had sex... and the condom was supposedly "full"(ewwwwwwww). My dad disgusts me. He's so immature. He always had something against my boyfriend for no reason. I think it's because he still thinks I'm his 'little girl'... but I'm 15, not 8. My dad has serious problems... he doesn't work because he got hurt at his job and he hasn't been working for like.... 10 years but still gets paid somehow. He's always in the basement and like never goes out, unless he wants to 'buy' my love as always which I hate. Like who is he anyway to go through peoples stuff? He does that all the time to my boyfriend and I. Anyway way, I don't know how to get my dad to change. By the way, I'M NOT DUMPING MY BOYFRIEND! He's way to sweet, I know it's my dad, my dad is weird. What do you think I should say to my dad?... I want him to get professional help like to go counseling but he keeps acting like a prick and omg I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years and he treats him like shit, its so rude.
My family is always around cooking for me and I hate it, but I feel bad if i don't eat what they give me but I feel even worse if I do eat it.
|Tuesday, June 27th, 2006|
June 27th, 2006
Off topic, but i don't know what to do.
I know this is off topic. But I think my boyfriend is stealing stuff from me. The last time I've seen my cell phone was with him and then all of a sudden it 'disappears'. Same as my pink mini i-pod. Today I couldn't find the ring he gave me. I was crying and looking all over when he was hear and he was disappointed in me saying how immature of me it was to lose it, so I thought maybe my cat was playing with it because she likes shiny things. Then he left to go for a job interview, and my dad told me that he thought he saw him put it in his back and it was there. When he came back over I told him and he told him it wasn't him and he had his back-pack open so my cat put it in. I know he's lying. Last time when I mentioned about him stealing my cell phone and i-pod he was soo upset with me and he was denying it. He told me before that having a fancy cell phone is stupid and he thought I didn't need one, then it's gone, same with my i-pod, gone. I do love him sooo much but I really don't know what to do, I can't be mean it's too hard for me. I don't know what I should do. Anyone have advice on what I should do? Current Mood: disappointed
|Sunday, June 25th, 2006|
June 25th, 2006
Has anyone heard of the diet pill Hoodia? It's supposed to make you not hungry or something. I want to know if anyone tried it and if it works or not, and where do you think they sell them?
|Saturday, June 17th, 2006|
June 17th, 2006
For the past week or so, everyday I've been doing 2 turbo jam work outs and a 8 min tae bo. I still have a problem with my boyfriend wanting me to eat, like all the time. I know I can use excuses like saying I have cramps or i don't feel well or whatever, but I can't do that everyday because he's going to find out why I'm not eating sooner or later. He knows that i had problems with eating before and he thinks I'm over it, but I'm not. He doesn't want me to go on a diet, take diet pills or lose weight. It's so hard. I hate eating, I don't want to eat, but I have to when I'm with him. I'm not sure how much weight I lost because I don't even have a scale, but I know I'm losing weight and I'll show my stats whenever I figure it out. What should I do?